Saturday, February 16, 2008

Creation is Groaning...


This is what I used to say when life seemed hard, not unlike now. It's been about a month since we have posted. Since then we have moved to the apartment above us; painfully discovered Samuel has food allergies and hence I have been working like crazy to find food that I can eat (since he breastfeeds); begun to grieve my grandmother's death/driven 24 hours to her funeral in Texas; and now Samuel and David have the flu. Samuel was diagnosed Tuesday night in the ER, David two days ago. David is fine, he is taking strong medicine and feels almost himself again. I wish I could say the same for Samuel. Of course he can only take Tylenol. It is killing me to see him hurting. Today his congestion really increased and he can barely even cry as his voice is so hoarse. I know that he and I will be up most of the night trying to find a way for him to feel better long enough to get back to sleep. I know all this will pass, but I hate it!

My grandmother, Mary Jane Vititow died about two weeks ago at 80. She had been in a lot of pain for the last decade, and knowing she was a believer, I am so thankful that she knows nothing of that now. In fact, as I think of the verse I loosely quoted above, it reminds me of the fact that her life right now is very different than mine. She no longer groans or has to hope for anything. Her hope is realized as she is in the presence of God. It is hard, however, to let her go. She was a neat lady. She was little, sassy, and a lot of fun. She was widowed 28 years ago and never remarried. She loved to play bridge with her friends. She made wonderful green pea salad, drank coke from glass bottles, and she called my her angel. We miss her.

6 comments:

theclowers5!!! said...

i'm so sorry about your grandmother and i'm so sorry you've got some sickness in your family right now!! please let us know if there is anything we can do to help. we miss seeing ya'll! take care of yourself!!

Melissa said...
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Melissa said...

I'm thinking of/praying for you and your fam. Much love!

Jessica said...

How did you realize that Samuel was having allergies? was it pretty obvious? What signs did he exhibit?
Jessica

Anonymous said...

Ashley,

That is such a sweet mama picture. So full of love and concern.

Unknown said...

We are so sorry for your loss. I lost my grandmother in Oct. and it was so hard, we are still getting used to not going to visit or call.
she was also little and sassy. It's hard when a woman like that leaves, but your words are so wise as they are not at a loss at all anymore.
Poor men in your life, I hope it all is better as I'm reading this on Wednesday and you wrote on Sat.
We are praying for you as you are prob. recovering from lack of sleep and the worry, o the worry. It's enough to make you sleep for days on end.
He is our strength!!!!
love you guys.